my last 2 years

Hello fellow horse lovers and Christians.
I would like to share my last 2 years with you.
I have been blessed and had to overcome some real tuff times.

It started with the business deal that fell thru I was suppose to get a barn, and living quarters put up for me to run my camp from, but the people decided that it was to expensive so the created a way to get out of it. And asked me to put up a fence for the pasture when that wasn’t done up to there standard they backed out of the barn deal said I wasn’t capable of supervising the building of it.

I had also gotten divorced and was alone so I tried to put up the corner post for the lean to 4 15 foot Pine logs (trees) I am only 4ft 11in tall and weigh 100 lbs I got 3 in the ground the 4th one did me in I injured my back and its still not right. It has spasms and goes numb between my shoulders. along with 2 other areas that are in constant pain, I also have fibromyalga that has gotten worse this past year. In November of 2007 I was accused of animal abuse. Which for me is the worst thing because if you know me you would know I am totally devoted to caring for the animals in my care?

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Any way I fought it and after 9 agonizing months and a lot of heartache

With Gods help We Won, and were acquitted NOT GUILTY. ....

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PRAISE TO THE LORD!!

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Well then I continued to start the riding camps and due to the bad publicity and my accuser bad mouthing and talking about me I got only 2 customers. So needless to say I didn’t do so well.

Wow I thought how much more, I was about to find out.

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I want to mention here that I had an Arabian Mare for 21 yrs she is the best horse any one could ever want. My first horse. Her name is Kharmel she’s a gray mare, and she has taught a lot of people to love horses and how to communicate with them, also to ride properly.

She would take the most unskilled and make them ride the right way. She would correct there mistakes as I explained what they did wrong.

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She was one of a kind for sure.. I love her so much.

Also my Dog of 11yrs a Doberman / lab mix <?xml:namespace prefix = st1 ns = "urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" />....Duncan.... he was a big lug of a loveable boy. But he would protect me with his life, he had cancer for about 2 yrs big tumor in his stomach it kept growing and one day he chewed a spot open and it started draining all over. We had to put him down, that was on ..September 10, 2008...

On ..September 12, 2008.. We had a couple of Gals from ....Canada.... come out for a ride.

We Saddled up Kharmel, Tasha (Kharmels granddaughter) and a couple other horses, me, my friend LeAnn and the two clients went out on a ride. Tasha is newly trained and this was her 1st trail ride, she did it like a pro. Her Grandmother taught her well. The ride went off with out incident. We finished undressed the horses and LeAnn gave them all a handful of corn for a treat. We put them back in the pasture.

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The next day, Saturday it had been raining the night before and was still raining I noticed Kharmel laying down in the pasture, I was on my way to town so I decided to check on her when I got back if she was still down I would bring her back to the house and keep an eye on her.

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Well she was still down and now she was doing the colic thing. Looking at the belly and twisting her neck and rolling so I brought her up to the house.

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You see Kharmel was a long time colicer, she had her first spell when she was 1 yr. she pulled outta that one the 2nd time was a lot worse and I had the vet out she was 3 this time we oiled her and gave her meds.....

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I asked the doctor about it did this mean she was at risk for colic? Would she do this again?....

The Vet told me she would always be a colicer and yes they tend to do it over and over. ....

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The vet was right the older she got the more she coliced. It was usually triggered by stress or change in her environment. Then as she got older she would just colic for no reason. You see when they colic it creates scare tissue on the intestines. So the more they colic the more scare tissue. And it can lead to death. ....

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Back to the present, so I checked on her through out the day, she was getting worse; I got the lunge line out and the whip put on my rain gear and went out to lung her at a walk, to get things moving inside her. She pooped a little so I took her inside the barn put a blanket on her to keep her warm, and went inside for a while she usually pulled right out of the colic as soon as she pooped. Not this time I went back out to check on her and she was down again, I took off the blanket and took her outside again, it had stopped raining at this time but the ground was wet and slippery so I kept her at a walk, didn’t help she just wasn’t coming out of this, my friend Tonia came over she was helping me we took Kharmel inside the riding area and I free lunged her, but she dropped down and started to roll, this time she was real close to the side of the old house in back and ended up hitting it with her legs a few times unbenouced to me there was a bees nest inside, and she woke them up, all of a sudden I saw all these angry bees coming out of this hole in the wall I yelled at Tonia to get away she’s allergic to them and when I looked back at Kharmel she was shaking her head and moving away. I wasn’t sure but I think she got stung inside her ear. But she seemed ok and so maybe I was wrong. We continued to work with her. She pooped again little apples, (terds) I went and got some medicine for her I had pulled her out of this before with this and so I hoped and prayed it would do the trick again, we just didn’t have the money to call the vet and especially on a weekend it would be double the charge.

So I got the meds gave them to her and waited. I was getting real concerned she had never went this long and she didn’t seem to be getting any better, 1 hour passed, and she started rolling again, I tried every thing I could think of to keep her up and moving she was getting worse, my heart was sinking .

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I had this mare for 21 years we had gone through a lot together, and she had soaked up many of my tears on her big shoulders. I had worked mucking out stalls and did training and what ever else I had to keep this girl 21 years of love and devotion from and for this horse I just cant loose her now I need her she help keep me sain, when all else is wrong she always made it right, now she needs me what can I do for her, nothing is helping.

Finally John came out he had called the vet I got mad cuz I knew we couldn’t afford it, but he just worked around me he said the money wasn’t an issue.

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The vet started treating her gave her some pain meds and that seemed to help she quit rolling finally, then she oiled her, and checked for an impaction, but didn’t find anything. She sedated her so she would be comfortable then she discussed the condition of Kharmel she told us of a test she could do but she would have to sedate her more and stick a needle in her belly but it would tell us if she needed surgery or not. It came out clear, no surgery needed and it indicated that she would pull through.

So the vet gave her a little sedation to last her and told us she would be ok just keep an eye on her. That was $450.00 later but it was worth it to save her. Or at least I thought.

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So with the good news and seeing Kharmel relax and looking better John and I made arrangements to go out that night. We had Tonia and Leann coming over to check on Kharmel throughout the night and if anything were to happen to call us and we would be right home. No calls all went well they checked on Kharmel several times, she was fine, standing, eating, looking outside. We came home arrived around ..11:00 am...

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I went right out to the barn to check on her.

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No, No, No, No, No, No, I remember screaming, not you, not my Kharmel, my heart was broken ripped out and a big hole left in its place. Kharmel was lying on the floor of the barn dead, she hadn’t struggled she looked like she had just laid down and went to sleep.

I shrank to the floor and just sat there and cried feeling the empty hole that I knew wouldn’t be filled, no one and no other horse could fill that spot.

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I stayed there for some time I was numb and not sure what to do, how to say goodbye to her. (I still don’t know how) 21 years of friendship, she was there with me through 2 husbands, lots of ups and more downs but she always was there for me glad to see me and never demanding. She did what ever I asked of her and love most of it. This past summer we even went to round up cows together, she did it like she had been doing it forever and it was her 1st time. So how do you say good bye to a dear dear friend, a family member, like my daughter said: she was my other daughter. And now she’s gone.

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I went into the house and told john and eventually called and told everyone else. John called a few people and we buried her out back, I couldn’t watch. I couldn’t see my dear friend go into the ground and be covered up by dirt. I went out a while later and picked up her things that were laying around put them in a plastic tub. They stayed there for months before I took them out of the barn. And put them away, and even then it was hard to do.

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I cried and cried for months, it seems like the hurt will never stop. I was angry too at myself at God, at the world. On top of everything else why would the Lord take her? It didn’t make any sence to me. I won the court trial and lost my friend. That just didn’t seem right, why would God do that to me I kept thinking. And then I remembered what I had said to Leann, I told her that I had given Kharmel to God years before and that if he chose to take her so be it. And he did. So why was I so mad at God? Because I didn’t really think he would take her? Because I really didn’t want to give her to him, and when I did I wasn’t being truthful to myself when I gave her to him. But the Lord took it at face value. I have heard it over and over at church be careful what comes out of your mouth it will either be a blessing or a curse. And if you don’t mean it don’t say it. The Lord heard me and he took it seriously but it has taken months for me to realize this.

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I started to fall into a depression after that. A deep depression and I prayed: Lord how much more can I take. I didn’t think I could take any more. But then I got another hit, on ..October 31,2008.. I got robbed by someone that knew me, they came into my house and took my prescription medications. And if that’s not bad enough they used the horses as a way to get me and my husband to leave the house long enough to do it.

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At ..11:00 pm.. a frantic knock came on the door boom-boom-boom, boom-boom-boom sleepily John answered the door, the person said one of your horses is out and I almost hit it crossing mahogany and 65. we got dressed and rushed out to check on the horses I went to the barn 1st all the barn horses were accounted for. Then we went to the pasture we had to drive to the far side but all the horses were there too. We looked no hoof prints in the snow. We told an officer down the road what we had been told so he could keep an eye out and headed home. Went to bed. The next morning is when we discovered the missing medicines. It was a set up. We called the police and they didn’t even come out they took the information over the phone, and even did the follow up over the phone. I felt really ripped off now. Because 2 days before the robbery the police came out to my house to check on the water tank because someone called them. But they wouldn’t come out to take a robbery report in person. Is that wrong or what.

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So now I am saying again Lord how much more… and the answer came in January, our land lord increased our rent by $400.00.

We only make $900.00 /month, how can we afford this. So that bring me to today, looking for a new place with 6 horses and 4 dogs chickens and cats.

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So if any of you readers have a cheap farm house or know of anyone who has one and would be willing to work with us let me know. Thank you and may all your days be blessed.

Betty Krueger

Tendertouch Victory Ranch

If you know of any place please e-mail me or my mom
cmariemeyers3@yahoo.com (mine)
cherokey87@yahoo.com (my moms)